.still.

i will be good.not pretend but i trying to be good.in the way i am.although i have know the fact that somewhere is not perfect because human is not perfect.i will hold on what i have learnt in all of you.the bestest thing that i have saw in you guys.i just miss that time.never be polluted,still me.cause i holding extra strong in myself.i will holding on myself.i will depend on myself.i will extra love myself.i will love you all no matter you all still having me in your heart or not.still.

.am i.

.em.
recently.i am so tired in mentally.everything went wrong.is not the way i thought or wanted.not a better way though but a bad way.is exhausted.sometimes i will get away from crowded people cause i think.when i get near them,they will think differently about me.in the bad way i think.thinking and guessing that much is really tiring and exhausting.but what have certain people done or did to me is really..can i say cruel?is not cruel..but mean in my way.is really upset.i am enough of the way all of you are.but other way perspective.am i got anything wrong.am i? am i? am i?tell me please if i am really did wrong.gossiping to one and other is not the way you can help the person and solve the problem.but getting worse on it.please,this is not the way.

.reminder.

a reminder for myself must done so that i won't lost in mind.
do remember i'm not good enough
do remember god is with me
do remember mummy
do remember my family
do remember to pray a lot
do remember to clean my room everyday
do remember all my friends
do remember be humble always
do remember my dream
do remember smile always
do remember cannot lie
do remember treat people with a truly heart
do remember to be good with others
do remember let my mind be simple
do remember who i am
do remember i love all of you all

.the end?the start?.

.pray.
is the way i am.i wanna be there to help helpless people.to cure them physically and let god cure them spiritually.i hope.i really hope i can do it.the dream is not just a dream.but someday.it will be mine story and not just a dream.mine own interesting story.i will hold own.hold tightly on you,my dream.do not to forget about the dream that i want to achieve.please,god.help on me.i know you will,but in a different way.

.hohoho.

.hehe.
merry Christmas guys.this is my 1st year that i felt i really having a Christmas season in my life.that is fun and joyful.singing Christmas's songs,greeting people,a warmly smile all the time,presents giving and present receiving.i was stunned by the power of Christmas that affect all of us-human.it will be how great if whole time is in a Christmas season.no worries but only laughing.but it was the strategic of god why he doing the way he does to us.he want us to realize about what devil can done to us and how he can save us then trust in him.anyway,hohoho to all of you.ya,is you.merry Christmas guys and may have a pleasant year.merry Christmas to you too mummy.love you always.not because you love me then i love you.but i was born to love you mum.

.weird.

.em.
is hurt.i hope is only unbalance of hormones and not something else.please god.just let me safely go through this year.please god.

.chu.

chu,don't cry.cheer up yourself please.i beg you.please.don't cry.