.rebuilding the emotinal blog.

here i am,
with all of you.i'm happy in the way of,i found the greatest love.love from god.is the everlasting love.i'm not seeking love,but i felt it. LOVE is the greatest thing than anything in the world.i'm around here to let you feel it.love ya;))

.ning.

i'm smiled when she talked about my name:))

.beloved's hand.

.she loves holding my hand.
.i missed holding her hand.

.sorrow.

somehow..how happy i am..i still felt sorrow in me.hidden sorrow..it keeps me be me.not over acted..sometimes,i will thanks for the negative attitude.that isn't normal.but..

.repellent.

i want to be a repellent.repel everything in my life.once problem attach me,i will repel it and not dissolve it as part of my life.responsible thought?noo.definitely is a no.been through this 18 years.yes,is a short period.make me sick of everything.everything.the world.a coward action.that definitely is me.let me be a coward for a second.i appreciate that.thinking the world,such a wonderful place sometimes,but with human beings living on it..what can u say?decoration for the earth?spoiler for the earth?depends on you..i just have to control my flow of mood.
i'm not letting the mood control my life..not even a second:)

yes.at the end of life.we are just empty.hollow.

.badly.

i want to go out so badly
i want to go shopping so badly
i want to eat icecream so badly
i want to meet my peeps so badly
i miss the one who called me ai ren so badly
i miss the one that loves me for her life so badly