.feeling.

the feeling of death
drift in and out of consciousness
sometimes,you won't be able to respond but you know people are there,you hear them talk
eventually....
you just drift away

we left with choices in our lives,
until the last moment,we left with death

i just wanted to stay with you until the last second i had
if i was given another chance
and go back to the past
stay there with you,mom
just there,being there for you
i love you

.mom.

hey,mom. you there? i miss you :(

.2012.

is been a year,never updated my blog yea:)
well,where to start? :S i'm having trouble in sleeping,so yea,here i am,typing and updating some news of mine:)
i'll be starting my new chapter of life in the end of august. i'm not excited,nor nervous.
because i knew that,it will be tough somehow,i just have to survive and do my best there
taking up physiotherapy course is not a sudden decision of mine,is not the last choice either
but, is part of my dream :)
still remember the the volunteer thing,africa thing,saving the world thing? yea,i'm still into it! 100% in it :D
i'll do my best,i am taking it very seriously this time.
because is not just about me,myself,but everybody.how can i influence everyone
leaving take a lot of complication but staying won't be far better than leaving.

Thank you my heavenly father,this is what You have given me <3 p="p">

the time

i knew this is the time

i don't know how would things turn out to be

i just want to give it blast

i want mama and papa be proud of me

i might not be the child whom can bring a trophy back

but i know what i wanted to do in my life

i know, what should i be plan in our future

my future never wanted miss out your attendance in my life

whatever it is,i want you to know,i love you papa and mama

.feeling.

all of the complex feeling..

all of the things had happened..

you do not know how to spill it out in words..

i feel really bad..

you just want to "spill" it in tears..

.exam.

i just wanted to pull this shit off in a nice way.thats all.

.pathetic.

don't ever be pathetic to yourself,

over all the obstacles,

you did great!!

i might think that is not fair for me to go through all this

sometimes,i just felt sorry to myself,because of all the challenges that i have to go through

but,that just a pathetic thought

no one will help you if you don't even want to help yourself

no one will support you,if you don't first support yourself

no one will love you,if you don't first love yourself

i just wanted to say these to myself,"you have done great!"

keep this thinking in your entire life,you won't be live like puzzle

sometimes,we just need someone to comfort

or even a simple "how are you?are you doing fine?"

or even a hug is better.

but,please hug yourself before others do it to you,

it is a better pain relief than others does.

please rub the hair of your love ones

please hug your love ones

please,just let him or her know that,

HE/SHE is precious;))))))