.pretending.

.em.
felt so empty today.my heart is squeeze .i trying to cheering up myself.
i knew many things happened in an blink of eye.ha.
i have tried very hard to stand up and pretend nothing had just happened.
ya.i succeed.what i got is.painful in my mind.really.i just don't want anybody worry about me.and also my mama.there's a lot of happy time with my mom.
but that is past.just a memories now.ha.what a silly me.
trying to go back to the past.
by the way.i'll not talk about my feelings in front of people.because my tears is rushing out.i just need more time.
maybe so.

.promise.

.tata.
is 0225a.m now.i still can't sleep.something going wrong with my body.yet.
i'm still reading onemanga.ha.
i think i'll going to see my mama with panda eyes tomorrow.ha.mama.
i'm sorry.cause i'm not studying but reading some unuseful comic.
after this holiday.i promise i'll study.as i can do so.ha

.continue.

.ah.
my legs were so cold.and my hand is shaking.but here to say to you guys.
i love you,guys.i love you ning,like my husband and lesbo
i love you nu,like my sister and ever.ha.
em.i'll be continue writing.my hand is shaking.right now.

.is that necessary.

.he.
have a drink with my ko ko just now at yoyo.ha.we talked a lot.i think.
i don't remembered much.stuck brain.i used up like 19 hours to finish my add math homework.is so damn slowed.ha.well.i just took an action yesterday.
but seems like someone don't want to reply me so.ha.just something.
my mama's figures is floating in my heart and brain today.
mama,i really do miss you.xoxo.

.sweat.

.fu.
having a sweaty day today.i went for jogged today.made me so breathless.ha.
my bro brought me to.he saw me just having a sick day in house and don't even study.but at first,they goes for basketball.
erghh.i suck at it.so,i went for a swing.ha.
a cute kid beside me.he have no teeth.em.i just thinking.did i need to take any action to keep a friend that even no any conversation for four years?yeah.i'll take it so.

.wondering.

ok.
my flu haven't heal yet.fu.suffering now.no wonder why.flu loves me especially.
can't sleep.wanna do my homework.but my brain does not working.
willing to find a friend and talk.but ningning not here.never mind.
just keep it in my deeper heart.ha

.choo.

.em.
today.my flu getting heal.but there are something worse.fever.ha.
this afternoon heavy rain droplets dropped on my head.ha.
we ran from asia city to center point.so cold man.is so fun today.
but my leg was hurt.because of olin.i will not blame at you.
as you know i can't do that.haha.just something.i felt regret towards someone.
the regret will never end if someone don't received my apologize.
here to say "sorry".
i need to talk with ning before i post my unmature behaviour.