.song.

mum,here a song for you:

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today,

I would hold you in my arms,
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done,
forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this,

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

hurt-christina aguilera

.fake.

ya..changed a lot..became more aggressive and extreme now..can i say becoming so fake..yes..i don't like it..fake..i really don't like it..

.challenge.

yes..never updated my blog...since...an age??hey ya..i just realized that i still..still will cry when talk about mummy..but not feeling pain anymore..yes..if you dare,talk to me about her..i want to overcome it..love you,mum..and i miss your foods..you know what,mum..i never let you know that..i never appreciate your foods when i am in primary school..i used to throw it..yes,how foolish am i..really..a big wound in my heart now..because i..really missing YOU!!

.lost.

i'm still finding my own way..yet still all of them seems like their futures is in their hand already..hard to lose it.i'm still finding the chances,the chances for me spread out my wings for myself and YOU..of course,the world..still..the chances will come by itself or..i have to find you??yet..i will still hold on..what i hope for my life and you mummy...