.blek.

.ha.
well.today.i cooked for myself.as usual.no appetite to have it.ha.i wanna have some ice cream.and some coke.i'm still thinking about the i.u day preparation.quite a lot need to prepare.guysy.let's make and do it together.jia you.

.super duper combos.

.ha.
well.as usual.this evening,i stood in front the mirror.my hand start "itching".ha.there are tons of pimples on my face.ha.damn hot this few days.ohya.continue.so i started to press my pimples.this is the most enjoying time for the day.ha.first,i start with the pimples on my left side(forehead).nothing coming out.just some plasma and blood.ha.then,i continue with the middle(forehead).i thought there will be nothing to coming out.cause the outer skin just dried out.but i still can felt that it is swell.so i pressed.
"put-put-PUT".wah.there were like triple combos.all the nanah stick on the mirror.quite a lot.that's FUN.BRAND.you should try this.i'm sure yours will be much more interesting than mine.haha

.lies.

.ha.
guys.here to remind you guys.don't ever believe what guys promised to you when you two in a relationship.that's totally just a lie.trust me.when you awake from the "promised".you will realize that the lie.is just so disgusting and ugly.but.luckily.i'm not really fall in love when in a relationship.i just soft-hearted to break up.that's the reason why my love can be so longer.is not because we love each other deeply.is just because i asleep in the "beautiful"lies.a lot of lies.when i woke up.is queit late actually.but.the happiest thing is.i woke up.i totally woke up from that kind of lies.but honestly.that kind of relationship will not be longer.cause.we cheat each other.from the start until the end.

.smile.

.ha.
a lovely.warmer.cutest.charming.happiest smiley face to all of you guys.
truly from my heart.

:)

.cheer up.

.tut.
what's going on this earth.problem comes and goes.it means it continuous to irritate us.guys,cheer up.ya,facing problem is part of our life.but,you can even don't bother it.is up to us.destiny.life.is in our hand.life is really short.cheer up guys.i don't even bother all the problems and went to swing.it's so peaceful there.really.

.up-up.

.em.
ya.i didn't go for a swing today.ha.i listen to my ningning.and there are no one home.so i stay.well.i also can felt something can happen on me.just ignore it.psychological problem.duh.seems like everyone dying.ya.really dying.maybe facing some family or love problem.don't wonder why.ha.people.cheer up.let's cheer up.life is really short.say what you want to say.do what you want to do.take an action before life is ending soon.

.living.

.lala.
that feeling is gone.felt so great.ha.well,i went to swing again today.ya.this time really alone.ha.but after 30 minutes i swung.someone calling.ya.that's my ko ko.haha.he asked me to go home immediately.wth.i just like stay at the playground like 30 minutes and you asked me to go home.ha.ya.i know you are worried about me.don't bother what aunt told you guys.i'll be okay anyway.maybe something will happen.i don't know.i don't even bother.i'll try to avoid that happen.i'll.ha.but just let me live happily.

.swingy-swing.

.ha.
i went to swing this few days.ha.don't felt like stay in home.stressing me out.i felt like going to walk at my residency.alone.wind blew my face.and.i just waiting someone to appear at beside my swing.

.the one.

.em.
i went to school like normal.but ningning knew i got something hide behind her.ya.there are something.but i just don't want to tell so.people even don't realize that i did really have hide something.but she's the only one who did really know me well.even i really good in hide my emotions and pretend normal.i play,eat,laugh,and talk like normal.then,i told ningning.just briefly.cause she knew i'll cry.i don't want to cry so.and i don't even hurting so.ha.ya.i fight with my dad last night.he's so unreasonable.well.i think that's all for now.

.bakat thingy.

.ha.
well.miracle happened on my school.i thought we could not made it.because of my bad luck.that can easily be spread to others.but.there the light.lead us.we won for the Bakat Interact Maktab Sabah 09'.ha.really.thanks to those band and dancing group.you guys are totally great and awesome.is worth that my credit be negative.ha.here to go.thanks to all interactors whom helped on the sales.and me.of course.sms-ing participants to ask them relax.always asked them to relax.cheer,cheer,cheer for them.i meant wild cheer.that can brings to ear drum damaged.ha.great job guys.thanks.

.luck.

.hu.
i'm in bad luck.bad things come over me.my life wasn't go smoothly.all the activities hang.because of me.i just wondering.is this a challenge?or karma happening on me?i just exhausted.with all the hard work i did.and at the end.i'm the one whom been blame and shoot.i'm passing through the hard path after my mama left me.i'm not giving up.if i giving up.please lead me.help me.

.duh.

.finally.
I turn up so.ha.kay.let me start with 5th April.I have a dinner with my cousin.they came from England.for vacation and take a look after us.ha.they are so lucky to have a dad like Uncle Stephen.trust me.he's totally a funny.kid-hearted.and kind-hearted man.ha.
then.after the dinner.me,my ko ko and my nephew went for a movie."unborned" was the movie we had watched.kinda scary.but the ending was just...mess up the movie.ha.
i just write what i did remembered for now.ya.my vice.p.Dam Dam have a fight with our 'Angel' mumy.i'll not given so much comment about that fight.i just don't want their relationship to get worse.i'll be the one who suffering.ha.
well.today.nothing much.but.i'll not smile toBrandie again.cause i realized that just made him felt so uncomfortable.that made me felt like i going to hell soon.duh.
Kinda miss my mama.wherever we ever like.stay,shop,have fun...etc..the last time.me with her.i never know that was the last.the last time we went for yamcha,last time she cooked for me eventhough she sicked,last time we having a conversation.the last time i stay beside her.i really miss her.she's the only one that made me felt love.i live in this world because of her. and now.i just found a reason to stay at 'here' so.because mama hoping for me to success.and i gonna repay all sacrifies from my mama.loving you so mama.always.xoxo

.smiley.

.ha.
smile can categorized as so many types.
lovely smile to my lovely ning ning.she always stay and support me.
senyuman bermuslihat to brand.ha.ya.i'm posting about you.
innocent smile to razdan.i really don't know anything.ha.
irritating smile to el el.you don't ever respect me.duh.