.make a change.

hey there:)
just wanna tell you all that,everyone suffered from their inner thought(the excessive one)

at least i can tell you that,i was,maybe am still suffering from some of my over thinking behavior,which most of the time of my life(1/4) am in a depressed mode
i isolate people,i put the blame on the love one or to everyone,blaming them on nothing,putting my emotional burden on them

In the real fact is,everyone suffered
most of them not showing it to others
most of them ignoring it
most of them living with it
most of them die from the inside

am sorry for putting my emotional burden to the others,showing those "faces"
like the whole world owe me a big time

no one responsible for your bad day,
no one responsible for your hard times
no one responsible for your past
no one does

whenever people gv your hard time,keep it to yourself,give others a good time
whenever people upset you,keep it to yourself,give others a smile

Hormonal games

Hi all! or hi me!

It just another day that i have been stuck in the room,literally

When all the emotions started to setting in and making me sinking into the sea of deep thought (Hormonal games on!)

Yes!i felt mistreated!i do not know what's/re the exact reasons why am feeling like this

(maybe am just trying avoid overthink about it)

This is the time,where i needed and misses her the most!

Because i know that,she's always the place i would wanna go for no matter good or bad things happened

Because i know that she love me and protect me whole heartedly like no one does

Her rough hands that used to comfort me

i misses all of that :(

 i love you mom,please stay happy at the other side of the world

promise me you will party hard up there

still you little girl, 

                            <3 div="">

it's been ages,eh,who am i telling to,this is a place where i can comfortably talk to myself and am not expecting anyone to read it.
I'm growing up from teen to now becoming a young adult,it feels like just a blink
but those heart work and things that i have seen,had made me becoming more...
am not sure which is the right word
mature?anti social?wiser?
not those i guess,am selectively sociable
am not mature too,am just keeping my mouth shut and that seems to be mature.

Am writing it here because i used to keep all the darkest secret here
ngeh,nah,no.haha. because i just needed a space to release it,that's all

The moment when you realized, your parents does not seems to be the one you always pictured of
maybe am a perfectionist which i doesn't realized of, i pictured of perfect things,and expected a lott
and this making my life so miserable somehow,and people around me,especially the love one

ohwell,coming back to that,what do u feel actually,realizing that your parents are actually just like any other people. Am speaking of lust actually when you wonder what is the thing am talking about.
i can't tell it more specifically,it just made my heart sunk and disappointed
i know,they are not saints.but still they r or they need to be the role model for their children.

it just very disappointing.who am i to judge them
i still love them