.myself.

.em.
myself?i have no idea what to write about myself.wait till find out who am i then i will continue this topic.

.new moon.

.lala.
haiz.i just knew that the NEW MOON will be coming out during the SPM.huhuhu.i was planned to watch like everyday in the cinema.well,you will be seing me at the cinema whole time.oh gosh.i miss TWILIGHT.i'll watch it tonight.haha..eh,no no no no..add math add math..

.my way.

.em.
life is exhausting,tiring...maybe interesting..well,i just lost my way in my life..i lost the one who am i..who am i was being..i lost my identity..i lost my characteristic,i don't even know my way to be..who can help me?if ago,there will be my mama..but now,i still don't know..maybe myself..can i help myself??human heart really can change so fast..i don't know why..ya..don't know..i cannot catch up all the step you guys left behind..but it's okay,i will never catch up what you guys did..because i will always love you guys..whatever you guys did to me,i will smile and don't even bother to it..smile all the days..kissy,kissy to
ning ning,steph,chel,shasha,amie,el,el,dondon,feichai,hubby,kimmy,jojo,and more and more..take care guys.

.mamamia.

.smile all the days.
.oh my GOD.
everybody becoming so emo.they are emo-ing.i'm not good in talking and comfort them.i use my heart to talk with you guys.because i really not good in expressing my feeling.i'lll not be so emo.i want my life happy and interesting.maybe i'll die on next seconds,minutes,hours,days,months or even years.i don't know.cheer up guys.ningning,i know ur papa was went back to indon already.pray for him.pray him is always healthy,happy and safe.don't be sad,your papa don't want to see that.you still having him as your papa.and me as your bestfriend(if you still want me lar).sha,don't be emo.everything will turn fine.try to think wider.narrow thinking will never help you,it will just let you in pain.everybody is hurt by the love ones,but there are someone will always love you.trust on GOD and loves him.Brand,come and take your guitar when you free.no,no,no..is when i free.haha..sorry brand,but your's guitar is really really so so so big.and.i learnt how to tune the guitar already.and also some codes and strumming.i just love it although it hurts my fingers.well,haiz.never mind.is not time to talk about it.i still love you guys.

.trip.

.hehe.

well,there's been 3 years that i never have a trip.just some problem bother of it.i have my trip to kundasang for three days two nights with my ko ko and his friends.that was so fun.i miss that time.the time full with happy and joy.no complication,no relationship(friends)problems.that's what i like.my ko ko friends,i meant my friends.stay with them was so fun.stay with very caring,mature and lovely people is so great.no emo,man.haha.well,they are the type of person no gossip,trust on whoever you are.they just so mature in thinking.i just try to be a person that try to look on my own weakness and not other people. i wish i could live in a village and not a town.

.EO.

.em-hem.
i having my camp youth start on 29th until 31st.that was totally fun.haha.well.that camp's name extra ordinary camp.well,i just done something that i thought i'll not do it forever to betray my own GOD.but i just think deeply and clearly.i live in world is to learn good things.i learning in the name of Jesus and also LAO MU.i'm not betraying my own religion.because i' m not doing something bad to my God.i open my heart and accept Jesus.HE is my father.HE asked me to forgive my father.i'll forgive him although it is very hard.is really hard.sometimes,when you did something bad,the sins do not come to you,but is your loves one.the very very important message in the camp is don't be hypocrite.don't be faked,man.what for you did all the bullshit nonsence things.and finally,i'll open my heart to all my friends,especially ning ning.i won't be so secretive any more.no more for that.i'll tell it when it is the time.well,honestly..me and ning.in the name of best friends.but we not really know each other.we didn't have a long chat.like never.i learned guitar also.that was so fun.i have my first prayer during the camp.i prayed to have my family back.i prayed my mama was back.i prayed that i need not to having a life like this.i just cried like hell that time.i just cannot let go.until now.but i know,that was Jesus accompany and tell me all the truth.and..there is ning..she always love me.i want to show my love toward her too.