.true friend.

.em.
what you really mean by true friend?i just asked this questions toward someone.but seem like he was so confused with that.but it does not matter at all,brand.for me.all my friend is my true friend.don't bother you stay always or stay far from me.as long as they still remember me after an age even they didn't like contact or meet you.this.for me.is enough for my true friend.ha.people will always appreciate you if u did it the same way with them.this called respect each other.true friend cannot stay together forever(physically) but in mental.they can.tut.true friend can betray you for some reason.they can even hurt you deeply than your lover.don't argue with that.i have been through.ha.because i know.they did not meant it that way.they just lost their way.and i should lead them.and not abounded them.remember.friend for a second,friend forever.

.ATTENTION.

!!!!!!!TURN OFF YOURS LIGHT!!!!!

.sick day.

.Finally.
Bakat Interact over.yeah.over.this made me sick of it,sick of my school,sick of the school rules.the program not really goes smoothly.because of the weird principal approve some M exam to held at our school.so.our volume cannot be maximize.i'm very very sorry guys.like to audience.and to our participants.p.a system in our school sucks.really sucks.i'm so sorry guys.finally.congratulation to Tearless Character and Sciatic Crew.you guys done a great and awesome job althought in a worse situation.really.just don't ever listen what some teacher say to you guys.i'll go and see you guys for the representative thingy.okay.and for interactors.don't worry about all the complains.because as i'm still at here.i'll carry all the complains on myself.just don't worry.

.failure.

.ha.
this the first and will be the last time for me to failed p.moral.haha.
what the heck.ya.i failed my moral for the first and last.just wait for my revenge.he.i'm so a unmoral person.that's not a big deal.everyone will fail their exam.i think so.haha.so wait for me.i'll be at there.for those flying colors results.GOD bless me and you.

.stuffie day.

.duh.
is 0125a.m now.i just came back from cinema.i have watched "hotel for dogs".ha.kinda funny and cute.i'm still not going to bed yet course i'm still not update my latest new.ha.let me recall what i have done today.em.em.em.em.be patient.i'm still don't remember.em.em.em.em.oh ya.i went to city mall this afternoon.cut my fringe and my ko ko.haha.u better ask him by yourself.then.i went to popular.i have bought some effective practice books.quiet a lot.while waiting my ko ko finish he cut.i went to vedablu.ya.alone.that's the way i always been.ha.i bought a scope of cream and cookies.quiet yummy.haha.i sat down there and take a rest.enjoying the situation at there.comfortable and relaxing.well.that's all that i remember now.my brain started tired now.ha.so.good night guys.xoxo

.reason.

.ha.
reason stand for saving my life from death.
i need reason to live on this world and not survive.survive is you keep on working hard to stay alive.but.i'm not.i'm totally not that type person for now as for sure.ha.i sneezed just now.like usual.but there are something interesting.my nose was bleeding.the blood just smelled like rusting iron.ha.maybe what they said is totally not incorrect.i'm so hot.not "hot" but the chinese people said the heat that stay in the human body.i drank a lot of water.but that is not working.my big illeum just don't absorb it.and now.pimples got worse.people.i'm not stressing out.my pimples stressing out with me.

.pretending.

.em.
felt so empty today.my heart is squeeze .i trying to cheering up myself.
i knew many things happened in an blink of eye.ha.
i have tried very hard to stand up and pretend nothing had just happened.
ya.i succeed.what i got is.painful in my mind.really.i just don't want anybody worry about me.and also my mama.there's a lot of happy time with my mom.
but that is past.just a memories now.ha.what a silly me.
trying to go back to the past.
by the way.i'll not talk about my feelings in front of people.because my tears is rushing out.i just need more time.
maybe so.

.promise.

.tata.
is 0225a.m now.i still can't sleep.something going wrong with my body.yet.
i'm still reading onemanga.ha.
i think i'll going to see my mama with panda eyes tomorrow.ha.mama.
i'm sorry.cause i'm not studying but reading some unuseful comic.
after this holiday.i promise i'll study.as i can do so.ha

.continue.

.ah.
my legs were so cold.and my hand is shaking.but here to say to you guys.
i love you,guys.i love you ning,like my husband and lesbo
i love you nu,like my sister and ever.ha.
em.i'll be continue writing.my hand is shaking.right now.

.is that necessary.

.he.
have a drink with my ko ko just now at yoyo.ha.we talked a lot.i think.
i don't remembered much.stuck brain.i used up like 19 hours to finish my add math homework.is so damn slowed.ha.well.i just took an action yesterday.
but seems like someone don't want to reply me so.ha.just something.
my mama's figures is floating in my heart and brain today.
mama,i really do miss you.xoxo.

.sweat.

.fu.
having a sweaty day today.i went for jogged today.made me so breathless.ha.
my bro brought me to.he saw me just having a sick day in house and don't even study.but at first,they goes for basketball.
erghh.i suck at it.so,i went for a swing.ha.
a cute kid beside me.he have no teeth.em.i just thinking.did i need to take any action to keep a friend that even no any conversation for four years?yeah.i'll take it so.

.wondering.

ok.
my flu haven't heal yet.fu.suffering now.no wonder why.flu loves me especially.
can't sleep.wanna do my homework.but my brain does not working.
willing to find a friend and talk.but ningning not here.never mind.
just keep it in my deeper heart.ha

.choo.

.em.
today.my flu getting heal.but there are something worse.fever.ha.
this afternoon heavy rain droplets dropped on my head.ha.
we ran from asia city to center point.so cold man.is so fun today.
but my leg was hurt.because of olin.i will not blame at you.
as you know i can't do that.haha.just something.i felt regret towards someone.
the regret will never end if someone don't received my apologize.
here to say "sorry".
i need to talk with ning before i post my unmature behaviour.

.drugs.

.ha.
i finally ate drugs.i meant paracetamol.what a terrible day.
i used rolled of toilet tissue for my mucus.terrible.i sneezed a lot.
made me felt like i'm a pipe.the mucus flowed non stop from my nose.
is like flood.ha.feeling so tired but can't have a good sleep.made my fever going so worse.i really hope my body allow me going movie tomorrow.
i don't bother.that's my date with my peeps.ha

.fu.

em.
everything seems normal today.as i having my flu now.
i haven't started my homework yet.felt so dizzy.
many things have to be done by this week.i'm not rushing myself.
i just wanna relax and enjoy my life if i stay still at this world.ha

.weather.

wee.
today.cloudy day.again.but i love it.the wind blew on my face.
so comfortable.everything seem so fresh after raining.ha.except me.
i'm kind of bored.ha.what can i do is.
watched,stared,and looked at the sky.
just bluish sky only.it seem to be relaxing when looking at it.it is so blue.
never forget the creature of GOD.

.hate to be pain.

ha.
what a painful night i had yesterday.my left brain was like sucking out.ha.
never stop until i went to sleep.i reject to having paracetamol because it will take me 3 months to detoxification the toxic.ha.i distracted when i watching "race to the witch mountain" with my ko ko.i'm so annoyed about the pain.
thanks god.it disappear right now.ha

.7th.

ha.
this is the 7th times i watched twilight.addicted to it.it filled my empty spaces.
no appetite now.no feeling want to eat.i have lost 2kg.
headache always disturbing me.what a empty heart inside me.ha.
i love twilight!!!!!!!!!!

.true love.

ha.
that never happened on me.included the one i have been through.no guys will act or protective like Edward Cullen toward his lover.
but certain guys will.until my life end up.i will never meet them.i have no this kind of luck.
ha."it doesn't matter for me".that's just a lie.can my friends be my true love???i love them.i'm the one who cannot conceive my love toward them.but you guys really mean it to me.

***blinky mind***

ha.
my mind cannot be control right now.something disturbing me.brain nerves cannot be connected each other.so sad man.i'm acting like a robot now.
no feeling,no thinking,no life.ha.my life would not be ended like this.but one thing.i hate my pimples.
PIMPLES LOVE ME SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!